Augusta Webster (Августа Вебстер)

Deserted

 No, mother, I am not sad:
Why think me sad? I was always still,
You remember, even when my heart was most glad
And you used to let me dream at my will;
And now I like better to watch the sea
And the calm sad sky than to laugh with the rest.
You know they are full of chatter and glee,
 And I like the quietness best.

 Nay, mother, you look so grave.
I know what you're thinking and will not say;
But you need not fear; I am growing brave
Now that the pain is passing away,
And I never weep for him now when alone,
For perhaps it was better — who can tell? —
That it ended so. I shall soon be well
 Now that the hardest is known.

 I am so much stronger to-day
I can look at all past and think how it grew
And how by degrees it faded away,
That light of my life. Ah! when I first knew
I had only been a plaything to him
Through all my loving, it seemed so strange.
If the high noontide at once grew night-dim
 It would not be such a change.

 I wonder I did not die.
Mother, I'll own it you now I am strong,
I used to wake in the night and lie
Wishing and wishing it might not be long —
Oh! it was wicked, and you all so kind,
How could I wish to bring you a grief?
But too much unhappiness makes one blind
 To all but one's own relief.

 I am not so wicked now;
You need not fear. I am hoping that still,
I am learning to lean on God, and I bow,
Yes I think I bow my heart to His will.
I found it a long hard struggle to make,
To clasp my sorrow and say "It is best,"
But, believe it, you need not fear for my sake;
 Yes, mother, I am at rest:

 Yet, listen, if I should die soon —
And I know what they say, though you hide it from me —
Mother, you'll grant me my last-asked boon,
That you'll try not to think it his fault, and if he,
Mother, if he should seek you some day,
You will not make him a hard reply,
But tell him, before I passed away,
 I sent him kind good-bye.

 Mother, kiss me, do not cry.
I could not keep from speaking of this;
It is nothing to say "If I should die,"
It cannot bring death more near than it is;
And I am much stronger. You shall not weep —
Who is it tells me that weeping is wrong?
But let me lean on your lap and sleep,
 I lay waking last night too long.

1. Seeds with Wings, between Earth and Sky
2. A Castaway
3. The Pine
4. My Loss
5. Dearest, This One Day We Own

Gerald Massey (Джеральд Масси) Deserted ("LOVE came to me in a rosy cloud")

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